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andsuddenlydynamite ([personal profile] andsuddenlydynamite) wrote2010-07-28 10:55 pm
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When Hayato found himself back in his world, alone, he naturally had written off what happened at the manor as a dream... but at the same time... he couldn’t help but feel the pangs of heartbreak. He felt stupid for falling for something that had to have been a dream.... but the idea of having someone that loved him for just being him... it... it was too good to be true... but didn’t matter now. He had to push his feelings aside. His future self had failed the Tenth, now he was in the future with his boss to try to prevent this from happening. But it wasn’t easy, the Vongola were being hunted for their Vongola rings by the Millefiore family. While he didn't want to admit it... he was scared. He had already failed the Tenth once, he was in this strange foreign world where there was a price on his head, and to top it all off he had lost the boy who loved him.... naturally his mood had taken a SPECIAL turn south. He had already lashed out on Yamamoto a few times. Now him and the baseball idiot were screwed into an all knew lifetime because he lost his temper. One of the Millefiore generals had engaged them in a fight, Yamamoto was down, and now Hayato was being toyed with by Gamma. The man had him pinned on the ground, stepping on his hand until their was a sickening crack. Hayato screamed in agony but refused to say a word... he would gladly die for his boss’s sake. This was all his fault to begin with. If he hadn’t acted out... if his future self hadn’t failed his boss....
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-18 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro slowly turned around inside Hayato's arms so that he could wrap his arms around his boyfriend as well.
Things felt so much more like they were fine now. The last hour had just been so nice, he could almost have forgotten where they were and what just happened.
It was good to know that there were moments like this to make up for all the pain this world had caused him and would cause him in the future.
Because even if Hayato pretended he had a choice, he most likely hadn't.
Ryuutaro was almost thankful for it. Following fate was so easy and... All the time at the Manor he always wondered what he wanted. If he wanted to return home at all, because that would most likely mean live without Hayato.

"You should go and rest some then...", Ryuutaro said silently, his voice even more muffled by the fact that his head was leaning against Hayato's chest.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-18 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
„In the middle of the kitchen?“, Ryuutaro questioned, even though he didn’t move himself, „I’m not sure if that’s a good idea...“
Which was mostly for the sole reason that he really didn’t want anybody to come in right now. Not because he’d be embarrassed to be found in this position, but because he just didn’t want to deal with people from this world.
He knew it from the Manor, the kitchen was just such a general meeting place. Everyone appeared there sooner or later to get water, bread, tea, fruits, cook, bake... or even just sit down and wait for things to happen.

He had to agree with Hayato though. He didn’t really want this to end right now, almost scared of it. But Hayato needed to rest... it was just so obvious.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-19 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
"Alright..."

Ryuutaro closed his eyes and leaned his body against Hayato's some more.
Hayato's voice just now had reminded him again of how fragile their situation was right now.
Just another moment just had to be fine.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-21 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro nodded.
"That sounds fine... It's a calming place."

Staying out of Hibari's way was something he'd intend to do anyway, not because he particulary respected him, but simply because he was one of those people.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-22 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro tilted his head in slight confusion. He wasn't used to having space between them anymore. Especially with the position Hayato had brought himself in, this kind of self-hug.

"I'm not sure", he replied with a small smile of his own, "I don't feel like sleeping, but I probably should get some rest as well."

He looked Hayato's position over again. It was not like it felt wrong to sit without closeness... Ryuutaro really liked being close to Hayato, but he enjoyed some private space, too. But the way Hayato looked, the way this happened was more than just wrong.

"Is there a particular reason, you're over there?"
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-23 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"Rest well...", Ryuutaro replied silently, watching Hayato's back for a moment.
He didn't want to comment on it again. Hayato could have his space as well after all and sometimes Ryuutaro was just too proud to always come after him.
He still couldn't help feeling unwell.
He sighed and leaned back a bit. He didn't want to sleep just yet, there was so much running through his head.

They'd be fine. Everything would be alright. And yet he just felt a little bit like crying.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-23 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro noticed that movement and his pride started melting away again. In this world Hayato was all he had and he just didn't seem alright right now.
This wasn't alright.

He softly placed his hand on Hayato's shoulder, leaning over him a bit.
"What's wrong...?"

He wanted nothing more than just lay down next to Hayato already, but he stopped himself. There had to be reasons for all of this. He wanted to hear them.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-24 12:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro raised an eyebrow.
"I have to humbly remark, that no, I don't think that's all", he smiled a bit. This time his speech pattern wasn't intend to bring distance like it usually did. Instead it was more pronounced like an inside joke and his smile was honest, maybe a bit sceptical.

When Hayato was wrapping his arms around his stomach, there was no way he was alright.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-25 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, that was some amazing change of topic here. Ryuutaro understood though. A part of him wanted to go on and on asking, but then he wondered what this would be like if their roles were reversed. He wouldn't like to be pushed for things, so he shouldn't do it to Hayato. Hayato was really the only person to ever get him to be this considerate.

Instead he smiled a small and very soft smile. "I love you, too."
It was good to exchange these words, but it still didn't feel quite alright. Ryuutaro resisted biting his lip and instead leaned down further until his hair was almost - or maybe - touching Hayato's face.
"But I wouldn't just agree with your first statement. I decide what I need to worry about. But if you don't want to tell me, that's fine..."
Or something similar to fine. Acceptable, maybe.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-25 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
The only thing Hayato was being stupid with was saying this, it was something Ryuutaro was sure on.
"It's not hell, it's never been hell... Just unpleasant, that's all", Ryuutaro smirked a very small bit.

Maybe more than that, but it was true, he's had worse. The cell. Reiji. ... Hayato's death. That. That had been hell.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-25 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
And that was when Ryuutaro finally gave in and just reached out to pull Hayato close. Respecting Hayato's space was one thing, but this had turned into another. He could see how they were just overthinking again.

They'd be rich if they'd gotten paid for everytime they told each other it was nothing.

"Then why don't you just sleep...?", he whispered against Hayato's chest, sounding a tiny bit teasing even.
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[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2011-11-26 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
Ryuutaro blinked in complete confusion.

"Why wouldn't it be?", he asked, genuinely puzzled.
They'd been with each other this long, Hayato should know that he could always touch him, that it was the privilege reserved for him.
Ryuutaro leaned against Hayato some more, proving it. This was okay. It took them a long way to get here, but it was alright. And very calming.

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