He could feel the tenseness... and then for the first time Ryuutaro asked him to let go. Suddenly it felt like his heart had turned to lead and just dropped into his stomach. It was like there was this rift that suddenly formed between them.
"R-right... s-sorry."
And reluctantly he let Ryuutaro go, not making eye contact. He looked down at his hand and quickly grabbed the splint and re-wrapped it all together. It was an unusually sloppy job for him, he just wanted the injury out of sight for now. Satisfied with however Ryuutaro treated his injures he gets up and puts his jeans and shirt back on in an awkward silence.
"I should... I should start tryin' to figure out how to work the Systema C.A.I... um... if you want, I'm sure Hibari will let you stay with him."
He kept his gaze to the floor and off to the side, he felt so horrible. Why did he selfishly with for Ryuutaro to stay with him like this? How could he have ever wished that? He would have been happier in his own world, as if everything that happened today wasn't a testament to that. This world was hurting him, and it was going to keep hurting him, and it was all his fault. He would try to do his best to make it better by shouldering as much of Ryuutaro's burden as he could, as well as the Tenth's, hell he would take the burden of the entire Vongola family if that would help. He was going to just pretend that everything was fine, and work as hard as he could to MAKE everything fine. He would bury his fears, and his pain, and everything else to make it easier for everyone else.
So he took a deep breath and looked up at Ryuutaro with a forced little smile on his face.
"Since I'm sure I'll be boring company while I work."
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"R-right... s-sorry."
And reluctantly he let Ryuutaro go, not making eye contact. He looked down at his hand and quickly grabbed the splint and re-wrapped it all together. It was an unusually sloppy job for him, he just wanted the injury out of sight for now. Satisfied with however Ryuutaro treated his injures he gets up and puts his jeans and shirt back on in an awkward silence.
"I should... I should start tryin' to figure out how to work the Systema C.A.I... um... if you want, I'm sure Hibari will let you stay with him."
He kept his gaze to the floor and off to the side, he felt so horrible. Why did he selfishly with for Ryuutaro to stay with him like this? How could he have ever wished that? He would have been happier in his own world, as if everything that happened today wasn't a testament to that. This world was hurting him, and it was going to keep hurting him, and it was all his fault. He would try to do his best to make it better by shouldering as much of Ryuutaro's burden as he could, as well as the Tenth's, hell he would take the burden of the entire Vongola family if that would help. He was going to just pretend that everything was fine, and work as hard as he could to MAKE everything fine. He would bury his fears, and his pain, and everything else to make it easier for everyone else.
So he took a deep breath and looked up at Ryuutaro with a forced little smile on his face.
"Since I'm sure I'll be boring company while I work."