"...Your still his father, a-and I know you have a hard time gettin' along... but if something happened to you, or if you disowned him... he would be upset. That means somethin'... I-I think." He scratched the back of his head, it meant that in some way, shape, or form he did matter to Ryuutaro... even if he was at his wit's end right now. Getting abandoned would hurt him, he knew it. What Ryuutaro wanted was to be let go, it was very different from having the people who brought you into the world and supposedly obliged to love you turn there backs and deem you worthless, "I-I mean, I don't always understand how Ryuutaro sees family... I-I just know that, well, y-you should have more faith in his decisions! He's not a fragile glass doll, he's strong... stronger than I am in a lot of ways. I-if you let him go, then it will be easier for him to come back."
He bit the inside of his cheek a bit, "It's hard... but it's what makes him happy. That's what's most important. Try it, you'll see... and, well... I'd... like to come visit, for holidays and stuff- if Ryuutaro's up to it. That is what you're supposed to do in a family right? I'd just... like to see what it's like."
He really did want Ryuutaro to have a relationship with his parents after all. Even if he wasn't allowed to be part of it. He just didn't want Ryuutaro to grow up and look back on everything and regret not at least... knowing his family. He knew what that was like all too well, and he wanted to make sure Ryuutaro never had to go through it. Family was important. Especially if they love you.
At the next part he tensed up and and looked down and off to the side. He knew Ryuutaro was in bad shape, even if he had been pretty out of it himself it was just common sense.
"I-I know... h-he's not okay right now, but he will be. He's strong like that, he has been as long as I've known him." He sighed and placed his hand over the bandaging on his side, looking up at Nobuhiro, "It was the best I could do. That bullet was meant for him, I just... goaded my fa-" He winced a bit, right. He wasn't his father anymore, "Th-that man, to shoot me instead. I knew I could take it, I've been shot before... and I knew I would live. You would have done the same thing if you were in my place too, wouldn't you?"
He slumps a bit, the weight of his failure in keeping Ryuutaro happy crashing down on him. Even knowing it was the better of two options...
"But you're right... I did still hurt him... I-I didn't think I'd run into that man here... I-I just wanted to see my mom... A-and Ryuutaro was so happy this morning! We both were! I-it was so nice... B-but then I messed up, I should have... I should have made the first move against my father! I had my weapons drawn! I just hesitated... I-I didn't think he would actually... a-and h-he... he's my father..." He swallowed again and ran a hand through his hair. He felt so pathetic, he should have done a better job. He should have been smarter. He was supposed to keep Ryuutaro happy! Now look at how badly he messed up! "Well... he was I guess it was a stupid reason for me to hesitate..."
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He bit the inside of his cheek a bit, "It's hard... but it's what makes him happy. That's what's most important. Try it, you'll see... and, well... I'd... like to come visit, for holidays and stuff- if Ryuutaro's up to it. That is what you're supposed to do in a family right? I'd just... like to see what it's like."
He really did want Ryuutaro to have a relationship with his parents after all. Even if he wasn't allowed to be part of it. He just didn't want Ryuutaro to grow up and look back on everything and regret not at least... knowing his family. He knew what that was like all too well, and he wanted to make sure Ryuutaro never had to go through it. Family was important. Especially if they love you.
At the next part he tensed up and and looked down and off to the side. He knew Ryuutaro was in bad shape, even if he had been pretty out of it himself it was just common sense.
"I-I know... h-he's not okay right now, but he will be. He's strong like that, he has been as long as I've known him." He sighed and placed his hand over the bandaging on his side, looking up at Nobuhiro, "It was the best I could do. That bullet was meant for him, I just... goaded my fa-" He winced a bit, right. He wasn't his father anymore, "Th-that man, to shoot me instead. I knew I could take it, I've been shot before... and I knew I would live. You would have done the same thing if you were in my place too, wouldn't you?"
He slumps a bit, the weight of his failure in keeping Ryuutaro happy crashing down on him. Even knowing it was the better of two options...
"But you're right... I did still hurt him... I-I didn't think I'd run into that man here... I-I just wanted to see my mom... A-and Ryuutaro was so happy this morning! We both were! I-it was so nice... B-but then I messed up, I should have... I should have made the first move against my father! I had my weapons drawn! I just hesitated... I-I didn't think he would actually... a-and h-he... he's my father..." He swallowed again and ran a hand through his hair. He felt so pathetic, he should have done a better job. He should have been smarter. He was supposed to keep Ryuutaro happy! Now look at how badly he messed up! "Well... he was I guess it was a stupid reason for me to hesitate..."