Gokudera just shook his head, His next words were spoken between sobs, "I... I think th-that I'm glad m-my mother died... at least this w-way... I didn't have to.. see her... h-hate me too..."

And again he was just lost in the sobs. He felt so horrible, so disgusting. How could anyone love him? How long would it be until Ryuutaro found him disgusting and left him too? How long would the Vongola stand him? He always did his best to prove to the world that he was worth the space he took up... but no matter how hard he tried he always was rejected. Everything hurt and he just wanted it all to end. He was just so tired of this pain. He almost wished his father had killed him... anything was better than this.... anything at all...

"I-it's never gonna stop..."